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1月10日 F*ck-all Schedule, New Laptop & The Amazing Ramble.So basically its been ages. I'm listening to Sexy Boy - Air. No i dont feel really sexy today. Reason being its really cold and my first flight which was supposed to have happened today, got cancelled due to bad weather. No I shall not take this superstitiously and succumb to devastation. I have my flight tomorrow and the weather is gonna be good so all's well. Apart from that not much is up. I have settled down here in Addison quite well. Its boring though, atleast for now. Porus and Sheila are in Bombay. Sheila's boyfriend Yusuf is here though he lives in the other apartment with the hampsters. My flatmate Rayo is in a world of his own, which I am too. I dont reallly wanna crib or bitch here, because I dont want anyone reading my superb blog and be mortified at reading stuff about himself. Anyway, so my average day since Jan 5 2008 is like this:
Wake up-make my bed-fix myself coffee, breakfast cum lunch consisting of: 1 croissant, 1 turkey and chicken sandwich, one piece of sponge cake-one hot pocket(its this thing made of ham and cheese stuffed within some bread-like thing-after all that, I wash the vessels-sit online-go run the water and sleep in the tub-take a shower at full blast-come out-preen in front of the mirror-sit onine again-mutter to myself-meet yusuf/maybe not- I hardly see Rayo, he's a nice guy and all that but we're nothing more than casual acquaintances, it suits me fine-so I sit online for a little while more-study-sleep.
Sigh. i cant wait to start flying. Atleast there will be something to look forward everyday. I hate this isolation. Its not that I'm anti-solitude or anything, but I'm just not in the mood for it. Sometimes I feel that everyone just cares about themselves and their convenience. Well maybe I am like that too, not sure. Its so annoying.
I really really hope I succeed in getting that commercial pilot license and finally doing MYSELF proud. I am not interested in whether others are proud of me or not, because the only person whose opinion ultimately matters is mine. I want Porus and Sheila to return quickly. Maybe thats selfish of me, but what the hell, all of us are selfish, atleast I'm public about it. I dont know why I'm justifying each and every statement of mine here but yeah thats whats happening and I dunno why.
I love addison. I love this place, its so calm and peaceful here. Its not some scenic wonder but its not an eyesore either.
My 20th brithday is fast approaching. 2 weeks are all I have left to be 19. I honestly DO NOT want to get older. They say "you are as old as you think you are" and all that shit-shat, but still, I just wish I would not age. My teenage is finally going to be FINITO. Not like I really had a memorable teenage but yeah whatever, thats not the point. Maybe I can cover up the tragedy by proclaiming how loads of birthday presents will cover my grief, but honestly I cant imagine I'm experiencing an ageing crisis SO EARLY in life. ugh. Someone help me with this nonsense.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have perfect relations with my parents. I dont wish to put them down or say they have failed, for no parent is perfect. They did the best they could have. I'm sure they think they did a fabulous job, though i think differently, and vice versa, but then to each his own. The point is that things are not "very perfect" with them. A volatile relationship, thats what I call it, with my parents, really. I think when I'm away from home ,things are generally very peaceful and cordial. Its a tragedy of sorts, sometimes I'm seized with this intense panic about who I will have around me after their time, you know, everyone may say its too early to think of all that, but still, never know. Its quite a chilling thought, of sorts. Its not like I regret about how it is, but then maybe this is how it was meant to be. I guess thats fine, as long as eveyrthing is cordial, peace is mine.
So apart from this, I got a new laptop! Its an HP dv9420us. I'm so pleased with it, we get along really well. lol. No I swear, its a brilliant model, just like me. Both of us are all glam-sham, shiny and super looking.
I realised I'm tired of eating refined flour based food and other bread related products EVERYDAY. I also realised that I want someone to COOK for me - ASAP. I also discovered my latest stress and boredom-buster: CLEANING. Its super duper therapeutic!! You all mortals have to come see our room now. Before it resembled a low-society garbage dump, the previous occupant (I will not take names) was an utterly disorganized individual (apart from being a bossy idiotic arsehole, ofcourse I threw major attitude on his face and acted like an UBER BITCH towards him, that shut him up, ok I'm losing my point), how such people exist I fail to understand, but anyway, I took it upon me to clean the whole damn place up, tidy it, vaccum it, arrange everything, put in our things, and VOILA! Welcome to our (porus and I live together in it) room!! Why are people so messy and disorganized?! I really dont get it, I HATE IT when I see untidy people. It drives me mad, but then I cant say anything, for one must learn to co-exist. *sigh*.
Yusuf has affectionately christened me The Divine Bitch. lollllllllllllllllllll. Thankyou, Yusuf, *bows and adjusts Divine Bitch crown on my head before I continue*. So basically Yusuf and Sheila apart from Porus, are people I am compatible with. Thank god for small mercies. For once I decided to step down from my pedestal and be friendly. haha. No really, Its not that I hate being termed a cocky snobbish bastard, infact it really pleases me when people term me that, but still, I cant really be a cocky snobbish bastard here to everyone you know. And anyway it doesnt hurt to be friends with people who are sane.
The thermostat in this apartment needs a tight slap. Because it doesnt function properly.
I'm listening to Rasputin by Boney M and now I feel really jumpy. Thank god for Boney M, hahahahahahaha oh fuck I love them so much. I think I'm in love with Kylie Minogue now. After I saw her banned Agent Provocateur advertisement on YouTube (pssst, you need to sign in and be over 21 to view that video, I lied about my age so thats how I saw it teehee, for once I wasnt paranoid of being over-age). What a video! W.O.W! No it did not "turn me on" or anything but it was really racy and sexy. Priyanka you can find some inspiration there. I also activated the Agent Provocateur screensaver. Its relle cool. Sadly they dont have a store in texas. Bloody. Not like I can buy anything from there for myself but no harm in going and seeing the place yeah?
Apart from all this bloody tosh, there is really nothing else of much significance. Apart from my instructor Lori, I think. No, Lori is a SHE, I'm sorry I have to point that out because my darling mother thought Lori was a man (I duno how she came to that conclusion). So basically Lori Martens is 27, funny, shrill, and smart. She asked me if I knew how to perform division, which obviously flabbergasted me and then made me burst into peals of laughter. I like Lori, she drops me home and compliments my dressing sense and everything. I think I like everyone who compliments me. Lol. Its true! I'm such a classic narcissist. sigh. What will become of me, dear lord. *gasp*
I better stop here, I'm overdosing on boredom. I'll update tomorrow and describe how my first flight went in great detail!
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