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1月3日 Happy Birthday Porus!Ok, ima come back from the dinner and post an update, but for now let me just dedicate this post to Porus a.k.a Birthday Boy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PORUS! 22 FINALLY! I HOPE THIS YEAR GIVES YOU ALL THE GLAM AND SUCCESS/HAPPINESS YOU WANT! I ALSO HOPE THAT BY THE TIME YOU ARE 25 GOD PROVIDES YOU WITH FREE BOTOX SHOTS. HAHA I'M MESSING. ANYWAY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY TO YOUUUU!!!!!! :D
Prayag. 12月26日 1 Week Later, Happy Birthday Priyanka & The Usual.Week 1 is over. So far so good. My mind is swirling around so many thoughts and fantasies that its hard for me to even focus on something . I really really hope flying starts fast, I cant wait to get busy. There's good company here. Porus is here, Sheila this girl whom I didnt really like in the beginning,turns out be quite the funny chiquitta and her boy Yusuf is another nice & sane person. Mother Promise! lol. I dont really want to bitch about anyone here because I fear that since my blog is publically accessible I dont want to invite trouble if the concerned targets end up reading this post. So, umm, everyone is nice here. *looks around shiftily*
Merry Christmas to you by the way. I'm sorry I forgot to wish you at the start of this post. So, as a christmas present if I should consider it that way, Porus gave me Escada Sentiment. *gasp*. This courthip with products, dear lord, when will it ever end?! *falls to the floor and looks at the stars beseechingly*.
The weather here lingers between 1 degree to 13 degrees. Which doesnt really matter as long as I'm indoors. The problem starts when I step out to go someplace. The weather molests me so much that I cant even cuss cuz I'm gasping for breath and running as fast as I can. Some very nice things I noticed here in the US is that there is no DUST anywhere. The air is C.L.E.A.N. Its so rejuvenating. I realised I'm obsessed with cleaning things. i duno why but it gives me the deepest joy and satisfaction in cleaning things up. Today Porus & I cleaned the kitchen. I felt so content. I also liked the fact that it was MY effort due to which the mess and filth was removed from the face of this kitchen. Sigh. Thank God for me.
So today is the 26th of december 2007 in India, which is my darling friend Priyanka Joseph's birthday.
Dear Pinka,
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!! I hope your day and your year goes briliantly. I wish happiness, peace and success to be bestowed on your bosom. lol, sowie, couldnt stop myself there. So as I was saying, I hope you get hotter, sexier, more buxom, wiser, do well in your dental course, have imnumerable men lust after you, get loads of amazing fantastic clothes, shoes and bags, and FINALLY, that you still remain the awesome entity that you are. love you. XOXO
That was sweet I feel. No really, dont you think so too? if you dont then close this window and drown yourself. Rascal.
One thing I realised since I've been here is that our daily diet is not even balanced nor consistent. I duno how I'll survive. At the rate at which things are going, I feel I'm gonna shed my weight in no time. NO I AM NOT FAT. I'm 70 kg and my height is 179.5 cm. So my BMI is ideal. I just dont want to be underweight, you know.
So basically last night when we were returning home, the bus driver asked me for a christmas present. Even though we laughed it off and I guess she was kidding, but suddenly I'm possessed with this sudden urge to buy her a christmas present. With no ulterior motives by the way.
I was busy dying of a sore throat since the past 4 days, thankfully now its subsiding, to be followed by the cough and the cold etc,. CONCLUSION: Viral is the biggest bitch ever on this planet.
I guess because I have not commenced flying yet maybe thats why I feel immensely bored. Sometimes I dont know what I want from my life. There are these moments I have, they could be while I'm in the shower, while Im eating and laughing with people; I guess being a master of facades is HARD. But then thats the story of a lotta people's lives huh? *sigh*
Chucking this melancholy and grief, I feel fit to say that at the end of it all, I'm sure things will sort themselves out. Everything is so juxtaposed. It confuses me. Maybe tats why the sudden sadness.
Thankfully my ACTUAL/SEVERE mood swings have not struck since I've come here. maybe is the whole thing of being surrounded by people that leaves hardly any space for introspection even though there are moments of speculation, intense rage, etc etc. This melodramatic side of me is really the weird one. I dont quite know what to do with it. Maybe I ought to preen in front of the mirror everytime I feel this way. The feel-good factor which my reflection bestows upon me is magical. haha.
Okay, so before I confuse you even more, and make your mind conceive doubts about my persona, I shall stop. I need to call pinka, eat, dream, scrutinise, satiate my never-ending doubts, and feel spectacular. Night.
Prayag.
12月21日 A Poem By Thomas GrayThe following is a poem by Thomas Gray..I found it quite haunting so thought of posting it here..
To each his sufferings; all are men,
Condemned alike to groan,
The tender for another's pain,
The unfeeling for his own.
Why should they know their fate,
Since sorrow never comes too late,
And happiness too swiftly flies? 12月20日 He's Finally Here!!!*Enacts melodramatic sequence* I'm in Texas finally!! I love the weather, I love the place. Since the past 24 hours that I've been here, I've observed that everything is so organised here. Almost mechanical. Which is good, I think. lol. The flatmates brought me doughnuts as a welcoming gesture. Nice people do exist. LOL. I gotta speak to the flight school's rep soon about my formalities etc and I just wanna go fly now and get done with it. Meanwhile I also wanna have a blast and get myself a lot of stff and be superbly fantastically amazingly sexily brilliant.
Thankfully I have not faced jetlag issues which is a good thing. Both the flights were BAD. The food was a culinary tragedy and the flight attendent were "back from the dead". Old, fat, wrinkled, UGLY.
The thought of flying a plane and the various technicalities that go into it seems a little daunting and formidable to me. But I guess I will be fine with it once I get accustomed to it. Sigh. Cant wait.
I'm still not at ease with the whole dollar vs rupee thing. Cuz instead of having a myocardial infarction at the price conversion. is eem to be in a tempral state of bliss as to how "cheap" everything is. Its when the billing takes place that my cerebral calculator does the necessary conversion and devastation strikes me. *gasp*.
Oh btw, I got The Sims 2 Deluxe Edition as a present from Porus. lol. So thats one more item thats been fulfilled on my wishlist.
I guess I'll have a brilliant time here, well I sincerely hope I do. For some reason I dont miss home. *shock and giggles at this remark*. I think I ought to create a "candid confession" module, since I always seem to be full of them.
Alright I gtg now, I'll update soon. *Executes page 3 male celebrity hollywood flying kisses to all my beloveds*
Prayag. 12月17日 Hyperventilation, Drowsiness & Last Day In India.I'm in Bombay now. I leave for Texas tonight. *tries in vain to hide excitement, anxiety, happiness & other related dramatic terminology*. Omg omg I still have to pack up those last things here & there, lock my bags, bathe, get dressed. Speaking of bags, I hate these bloody bastard airline peoplDespicae, they're so rough with the baggage, my poor new fabulous bags got scratched and stuff. Arseholes. Secondly, I think I hate teen NRIs. They're the worst lot to infest the planet. Disgusting, pitiful & stupid. So the flight yesterday from BLR-BOM was alright. There was a newly-wedded couple seated next to me. The guy kept elbowing everyone, but ofcourse, as expected, I shot him a glare & the elbowing suddenly seemed to have stopped. WOW. Apart from their annoying giggling/PDA indulging/loud voices, the journy was relatively good. About an hour later when I seemingly got bugged with them, I opened a page on the in-flight newspaper which had published a full-page article on how/what to do when your spouse cheats. *Evil glee*. lol. I, ofcourse, spread out the paper and looked at it intently. The article caught the attention of the couple and sadly they seemed disturbed. God forgive me, for I have sinned, but it was imperative to indulge in this act of sadism in order to preserve my mental peace and stability. Thanks. Anyway so after the flight, I hired a cab. On reaching home, the assholic cabbie asked me to pay him triple the fare of the meter. Yes my beloveds, I fought and i fought GOOD. Eventually, I won. *bigtime smirk*. I hate dishonest, fraudulent and money-laundering cabbies. They're an insult to the transportation industry.
I feel so extremely sleepy. I have not slept soundly in a week now. I cant wait to board the aircraft and just sleeeeeeeeeeep. Been so busy packing/running around/getting things finalised. ts been a pain, but I guess its well worth it. Tonight's FINALLY arrived. Its still hard to digest. Oh god. lol. I've worked so hard for this to materialise. Today, satisfaction and happiness belong to me. Though the ultimate orgasmic version of satisfaction will arrive the day I get m license & get into an airline, but still, none the less, this feels brilliant. Sigh. The biggest ego massage is when you prove EVERYONE wrong and succeed no matter how many people are negative about it. I've struggled with this SO MUCH, I truly truly deserve this bliss. *radiance and feel-good factor at full blast*.
Chi ya, I'll miss India, I think. *laughs shamelessly*. Oh there's another tiny bit of good news: I cleared my FAA medical. This is different from the tough medicals I underwent last month. These are super easy. Its required if one wishes to fly in the United States.
I dont know what else to ramble about, I need to go eat chicken curry now. I'll update next once I'm in the US. lol.
Prayag.
12月15日 The Superstar Is Leaving!!!! *Screams & Gasps*OMG. Tomorrow I'm leaving for Bombay. Ofcourse the highly melodramatic entry will be posted tomorrow night, but for now, I'M LEAVING!!!!! *SCREAMS AND FAKES A SPELL OF FAINTING*. I dont "buh-leev" this. hahahaha shyt shyt ok so let me rave and rant now. I'll miss Bangalore, I'll miss the AC like atmosphere of my house. I'll miss hanging out with my mom, eating chaat, annoying her and listening to her nagging. *sniff*. I'll also miss answering the landline and acting oversmart with the caller. I'll miss cursing the neighbour's dog, the traffic, the bastard auto walas, mom's food, I'll miss throwing my divo like tantrums and associated nakhras. I'll miss watching all those hindi serials and bitchimg/commenting/laughing at the madness they offer. I'll miss talking to priyanka, jessica, misbehaving with priyanka, cleaning up the house and my room. I'll completely miss sitting on my terrace and having my hallcination session. This only child syndrome is a real pain in the trachea. I'm sure in Texas there will be no multi-cuisine chef, noone to nag, noone to accept my fussy irritating tantrums. *sigh*. LOL. Such a bleddi bout of realisation. I know priyanka's reaction: "very good! bastard needs to appreciate what he has". hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahhaha I love priyanka and her various tight possessions.
Omg omg I feel so fan-fucking-tastic today. I feel like the life inside of me has sprung out like a wild tigerlily. lollllllllllllllll I love this song Mauja hi Mauja from Jab We Met. Mika Singh has a HOT voice. Too bad he's a total weak-ass in other aspects. Today I was speaking with my virtual amma and since she's got a new job and all, dealing with our dear bollywood industry, it was quite a scene to see her addressing akshay kumar as "akshayji". hahahahaahahahhahahahhahahaha oh simma, you are adorable. Acha and then Mom and me are going with family friends in the evening to see this lame choir. All my fun spoilt. Pinka knows the inside story. Sorry cant elaborate. But I really wanted to ...erm....flash my new birthday present. lolllllllllllllllll
I ate loads of ice-cream with hershey's chocolate sauce. I think I'll weep like a newly wed bride tomorrow when I have to bid farewell to mother dearest. Actually my ego wont permit me to express grief in public. Ugh I'm such a overdramatic idiot. But what is life without drama I ask?! Its always been my dream and favourite visualisation to see the Victoria's Secret models walk on the roads of Bangalore. Oh imagine how the traffic wala pot-belly cops and the various commuters' reactions would be. *sits back, imagines, sniggers and continues*. oh god oh god..alessandra ambrosio is Gorgeous. Sometimes I feel that all women must be sent to a VS finishing school. *anticipates brickbats*. Okay I'm joking.
Apart from all these whims and fancies, I feel like consuming obscene amounts of alcohol. Suddenly my happy and excitement hormones are being released in full blast. This new house we shifted into a month back has been SUPER LUCKY for me. Like everything has worked out since then. The only fuck-up is that its too damn cold in here, considering the house is shrouded with trees. So like I mentioned earlier, it feels like there is an AC on full blast in the bedrooms. *frowns*.
Since November 9 I've been hearing a lot of people ranting like mad hyenas about Om Shanti Om. I dont understand whats the whole mania about. I mean, lets accept that SRK is experiencing male menopause. He's almost finished. I dont understand whats with his publicity stunts of baring abs and what-not. It doesnt even suit him. And deepika padukone should be administered a tight slap & sent home. She's dumb and boringly diplomatic. Dodgy little plastic tart. I think I ought to be a critic. I have this inborn talent to trash anything and anyone mercilessly.
Sometimes I wonder what plan God has for me. I'm sure its a super duper alpha beta gamma awesome plan, whatever it is. My latest aim in life is to open a wildlife sanctuary and I also want a pet donkey. I wanna name him Lord Duchovny. Dont you dare diss me about this I'll send the Boogie Man after you and he'll cook you while you sleep.
I'm extremely excited *duh*. This is like a whole new fantastic fabulous phase in life thats waiting to be experienced. I pledge I will bring my darlings some nice presents. I dont want to lessen the effect of "Darlings" by naming them, and second reason also being that some of you may get offended if I dont include your names in my "darling" list.
Under Pinka's enlightened light, I've started listening to Bach and other such refined pieces of music. I plan to continue with this. Sometimes I feel like I must learn an instrument, preferably the violin or the classical piano. Sigh. So many aims and so many desires.
Okay Mother Dearest is calling me. I need to go get ready now and look and feel dashing! *grins and checks self out in the mirror*
Prayag.
12月14日 2 Days More, Run-In With An Ex Adversary & Some More..I have 2 days left to do what I please/eat what I please/throw tantrums and fusses/have my way in the house/sit at my terrace in the afternoons, stare into nothingness and talk to myself/crib about how the neighbour's dog is too noisy/and much more.
I'll miss home. I'll miss the silence and peace it has to offer. The whole thing of going to Texas and living amongst strangers is SO daunting. Considering I'm not even the friendly sort. lol. shyt. Anyway, challenges must be faced, and face them I shall. head-on. *does a little jig at this new found inner courage and bravery*.
Today evening our family friends and us went out to dinner, to this eatery called The Only Place. haha, its a nice place, food was alright, continental cuisine, altogether I had a nice time. The weather was awfully chilly. Ugh. But anyway, after dinner, we went to Corner House, its this place where you get ice-cream, and as I was waiting for my Hot Chocolate Fudge, I saw someone whom I never though I would see ever again in my life. I dont wish to take this person's names, but seeing him really made me feel bitter. I felt awkward too. You know how the feeling is, when you see someone you really do not like. Considering how much trouble and bullshit that person as created for you. But ofcourse, its not that I was always the victim, I definitely created havoc for him too. But anyway, I dodged him conveniently, so I dont think he saw me. Thank God for small mercies. Anyway, to actually come face-to-face with an unpleasant fragment of the past can be quite a shyt experience.
Apart from this, I've finished 93% of my packing. Yes I believe in not keeping things for the last minute. I just hope my baggage doesnt exceed the permissible weight. I realised I always end up worrying about something or the other. Like once I worried about whether the stray near the bakery got its share of food for the day or not. Anyway, tomorrow some last-minute itsy-bitsy packing and some print-outs need to be done. I guess it should all go smoothly.
I think all I need is some perspective. Thats all, maybe the disillusionment that has inhabited me for so long has not left completely. I guess time will make everything alright. I sound so uncertain and confused, but then I guess thats what makes me human.
Sometimes I wish I could do away with some people who I feel are creating more negativity inside of me. But alas if it was that easy I wouldnt be wishing for it in the first place.
For the first time, I wish to spend my 20th birthday in solitude. *raises eyebrows and feels slightly frightened at the statement I just typed*.
I've put up new music on my space. I hope you like it. Tomorrow's gonna be another hectic day. Reality and responsibility beckons. I must take your leave. Next update by saturday night.
Prayag.
12月11日 Passing The Math Exam, Mayada & The Usual Updation.Finally, things have reached fruition. I'm extremely happy. Its showing on my face, its seeping out of every pore in my body. God has been kind.
I passed my math exam!!! I got a 50 on 100!! OMG I'm so thrilled!!!!! *sits back for a moment, revels in this new-found glory, gets back*. I leave on sunday from bangalore to bombay. And the flight to the US from bombay is on Monday, the 17th. I cant believe this is happening. I cant wait to get my hands on that aircraft's yoke and FLY. Oh the bliss thats waiting to be experienced. I'll elaborate more on that one as and when it happens...hehe..
So apart from the impending departure, I've been busy purchasing necessary stuff, finishing paperwork etc. I met my darling friend Priyanka today. We exchanged birthday presents in advance. Yes, my wish to own designer innerwear is fulfilled. LOL. Thankyou so much Pinka, I loved the boxer shorts. *xoxo*
I purchased a few books some days ago, all of them are women-centric, but what the hell I'll read what I like. Three of the books revolve around women in the middle east namely Iraq & Saudi Arabia. The lives these women lead has always intrigued me to know more about them. The best part is, the books I purchased are VERY controversial in the middle east, which makes the experience all the more better lol ;)
I finished one book already, Mayada: Daughter Of Iraq. Its fantastic really. Tragic/heart-wrenching, but REAL. Its a true story about the protagonist, Mayada AL-Askari, who lives in Iraq with her two children, under Saddam Hussein's regime. She is imprisoned one day at the Baladiyat prison on charges she is not guilty of, and thus the horrors of life in prison are revealed. Scary and disturbing. Eventually, Mayada is released, since her mother is well-connected, but sadly the same fate wasnt in the cards for the other inmates. Sometimes I think, and genuinely so, that these women in the middle east such as in Saudi Arabia etc, who lead extravagently lavish lifestyles on the outside, would actually give their right arm to taste FREEDOM. You may please access the link on the "In My Hand" module, if you wish to know more in detail about Mayada.
I also picked up a classic; Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy. My mother was so pleased! haha..she feels I've finally gained some perspective as far as reading is concerned. But Anna Karenina looks formidable. Its voluminous!!! Ugh. I hope I enjoy it.
I simply love reading. I dont know why, but I could read for hours and hours, its the best of indulgences.
Things at home are smooth, much to my satisfaction. Our new part-time maid Mary is sweet. Well she's sweet because she & I have zero interaction. Thankfully she's not a shammer unlike my ex-maid cum opponent Nirmala. Czar is having a blast at dad's place in Assam. Mom is also gonna go join them in Jan. Nice nice.
I realised oflate my meals have been very vague. Like for dinner tonight I ate cake with strawberry sauce over it. I'm obsessed with learning yoga. I shall commence classes ASAP once I reach the US.
I came across PETA'S website some time ago. I read about Mars Bars, that the company which manufactures it is busy torturing innocent animals to carry out its tests. Even though Priyanka enlightens me that this practice has been going on since ages, I'm devastated. Honestly, I feel its a curse to be born as a human being. We only bring about destruction wherever we set foot. Thats all we do. All the time. Ofcourse, I'm also a contributor to this, since I eat non-vegetarian food. But maybe when the new year starts I may just take a resolution of turning vegan. I'm so fedup and sickened by this ill-treatment. I think humans deserve every single catastrophe that befalls them. *Makes horrible dutty vengeful face*.
I shall leave now, its getting late, I need to sleep, for tomorrow a lot of work needs to be finished.
Prayag.
12月2日 The Fear Of Going...Everything has been monotonously peaceful all this while since my last update. Czar has reached Assam successfully and happily this morning. Even though I miss him all the time, I cant be happier and more relieved to know that he will be healthy and happy with Dad. I'm beginning to feel horrible about leaving.
It hit me some time back that finally, I'm actually leaving in a few days. I'm feeling so uneasy. Maybe its the fear of the unknown. But I dont know. To be in an entirely different continent altogethere, with no friends, family nor czar to be close by to provide consolation, is discomforting. I'm actually scared, I duno how its going to be like to live with strangers. I feel like this is going to be yet another challenge. The feeling is finally sinking in so deep. Honestly, as much as a part of me is thrilled that I'll finally get to fly, there's this other part of me that DOES NOT WANT TO GO. There's too much of speculation/assumption/extremity going on inside of me. I'm really holding onto these last few days. My tickets are booked. I leave on the night of 17th december. There's no turning back from this. I cant afford to. I've worked hard for this. But deep down inside, personally, emotionally, I dont think I'm prepared. I still need more time. For some reason my dog's absence seems to have handicapped me. I may seem like I'm going overboard with this, but being an only child, my czar was my only support and comfort in the house. I wish I could take him with me. I dont know, but no amount of reassurance will really help me find peace. Because, ultimately, the feeling of assurance and peace comes from within. I repeat, I'm super thrilled and happy I'm going, for I will be able to fly, and help in making my professional dream come true. But at what cost? Thats what daunts me. Maybe I have become dependent on some people for constant support and guidance. Even though, there is MSN, Orkut, Facebook, but its not the same. The consolation I derive from the fact that these people are physically closeby, will be sorely missed. I'm honestly scared. Maybe revealing so much of weakness and letting my guard down like this on the blog may be risky, but I have nowhere else to vent. Maybe now I know how G felt. I want to finish flying and hurry back. I'M SCARED.
Otherwise, at home, there's an abundance of peace. Mom & me get along fine. I speak to Dad almost daily. I wash the utensils, set the house, check up documentation work, dad's bank work, its nice to be responsible. Sometimes I wish I had a sibling, for the plain reason that I dont want to be alone later in life. Argh I'm so melancholic tonight. Not cool.
Next week my math result is expected. I'm so jittery. I worked hard though, so i feel inside that I should be passing this time. I deserve to pass. Really I do.
This year has flown past. When I look back, its all been so crazy. But then, I guess everything happens for a reason, and for the best.
I really hope, ultimately, God remains on my side. For without Him I'm entirely LOST.
With a lot of promise & anxiety,
Prayag. 11月25日 Departures, The Flu & A Thousand Splendid Suns.Dad returned to assam yesterday a.k.a Saturday morning. One month since he arrived just flew past. It felt like he had just come 2 days ago, and now here he was, getting ready to return. *sigh*. This is not it, Czar is also leaving on wednesday, he's going via train to assam, to be with dad. I'm feeling horrid already. Thankfully his health has improved now, so that gastro-entritits bitch that plagued him is gone.
I'm down with the flu, since 2 days now. On friday night my hotness was overflowing and burning the bed. My dad thought I ought to be taken to the hospital, but then I heroically refused and by morning, the fever had disappeared. Though the cold and sore throat still remain. I cant wait to get rid of them too. I hate Bangalore weather. It always fluctuates so abruptly, causing me to have a relapse. Disgusting really. So much icecream is left in the fridge and sadly I cant even have it until this flu vanishes. Its not fair!
Yesterday evening my friend Sarah lent her book to me; A Thousand Splendid Suns - Khaled Hosseini. What a MARVELLOUS book!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I finished it in flat 4 hours. Amazing literally, The story revolves around the lives of Mariam & Laila against the backdrop of Taliban-Occupied Afghanistan. Even though the story is realisatically tragic, but still one cannot help but laud the endurance and perseverance that women in such situations seem to possess. To live a legitimate life when one comes from illegitimate beginnings, is truly inspiring. I loved the title as well, "A Thousand Splendid Suns", beautiful really. Khaled Hosseini is gifted, I envy him. LOL. This book actually made me realise how INHUMAN/DESPICABLE the Taliban were.. let me include an excerpt, which is a message issued by the taliban, written in various flyers, tossed into the streets of Kabul:
"Our watan is now known as the Islamic Emirate of Afghanistan. These are the laws that we will enforce and you will obey:
Attention women:
Listen, Listen Well. Obey." I'm shocked, I'm devastated, I dont believe this. Neither will any other freedom/equality loving human being. To not enjoy your prerogative, to let someone else decide how you carry on with your existence, is a thought that cannot let me relate to it. To live successfully under this kind of rule, is truly, truly, miraculous. I, for one, am lucky to be born in a place like India. But then again, the universal situation as far as women are concerned, is generally the same, though varying in degrees of intensity. I dont get it, whats with society mostly pointing the accusing finger at women? Which reminds me of another line in the book, that Mariam's mother, Nana, tells her:
"Like a compass needle that points north, a man's accusing finger always finds a woman. Alwaya. You remember that, Mariam".
Its highly depressing, but its completely true. I do not pity these women, who endure so much in life, because honestly, they're stronger than most of us who are in comparatively better-off situations. I would rather look upto them, and pray that may this inequality and strife in this world end, for ultimately the whims and fancies of mankind in general, have always rained misfortune ultimately on noone, but ourselves.
You must read this book. I strongly recommend it.
Realisation: It is indeed, women, who are the stronger sex. No wonder the weaker ones who are sent down to the world are men. I do not mean to go against my gender, because thats no at all my intention. I speak for myself here, and what I think & feel. So dont take it personally. Thanks.
I must sign off now, I just received the summons from my mother dearest. I shall be back to update, soon.
Prayag.
11月21日 OMG I Got The Visa!!!! *Gasp*I got my US visa !!!!!!!!! Ok thats what even the title says but OMG!!!! lolllllllllllllllllllllll I'm very happy (like duh). I went to chennai the day before yesterday, and yesterday was the interview and stuff, and I cleared it, God bless that Visa Officer I swear. hahahahahhaa sooooo yes I dont feel any anxiety etc today. Not in the least!!! I cant wait to fly. Firstly I want to thank the following:
Thankyou: God, Dad, Mom, Czar, Porus, Priyanka, Ferzin, Monaz, Marij, Neha, Jessica, Uncle Cla, Uncle Sai, Aunt Bee, Grandma & Grandpa, Aunt Swa, Appu & Ammu, Anisha, Geeta, Aunt Sri, Krupa, Priya, Simran, & everyone else who prayed/kept me sane. lol. Really.
So now all thats left is my math result. And I'm confident of passing in that as well this time. I feel so fantastic today. Ah, Bliss. (closes eyes and teleports self to dreamland for 5 minutes).
I wanna go and eat lots of junk food, see a movie, buy stuff, and lose myself to this new-found joy. Maybe some of you may think its just a visa, but honestly, only I know what sort of tension I've been in since the last 4 months. Anyway, its all over now, and everything worked out. So Yippee Yippee Joy Joy!!
Okay so now I gotta go and eat my lunch, sleep and wash vessels in the evening. And then poor Czar has to be taken to the vet for injections too. So sad, but I love the sight of him in a muzzle. Too hilarious. lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllll...Okay Okay so ciao ciao for now Mom's yelling!!!
Prayag. 11月13日 The Wishlist, Czar & The Usual Updation.I've finally commenced working on my wishlist. I should be done within the next 24 hours. Interested parties who desire to give me presents on occasion of my upcoming 20th birthday on 24 jan 2007 may please keep checking my space on a regular basis. Thanks.
I think my dad is taking Czar with him to Assam. My heart breaks into a zillion pieces when I think of my poor Czar going away. Who will I harass now? Who will I sprinkle water on? On whom will I try to piggy-back on? Who will bark at all the dogs, whose gonna play with me and finally whom am I gonna lift and carry around? Shyt. I'll miss my Czar, really. Its not done you know. *Sulks*. But I guess he's better off with dad in Assam than here. That way there shall be peace in the house. (Refer to one of my previous blogs where I have explained about Mom fighting about the dog being here nd how she cant handle it alone and some other bullshit).
Things are alright otherwise. I have not been upto much. I feel so bored here. I wanna do something exciting. I wanna start flying. I wanna travel. *Taps foot impatiently*. I havent even been watching TV lately. And I've even stopped watching those daily tarot horoscope programs on Aaj Tak & Star News. This sucks. But what to do, maybe its meant to be. I've stopped watching all serials, programs, everything. Gosh, whats happening. Being sedentary is the worst. I desperately wanna play a computer game. Like maybe The Sims or GTA or some shit like that.
And something very mysterious has been happening since the past few nights. You see, my bed comprises of two mattresses one on top of the other *like duh*, so every morning when I wake up, the mattress on top, on which I'm lying, very strangely seems to slide away..you know, such that its hanging out of the bed. Its like someone pushed it or moved it. i wonder who. If its that new part-time maid whose upto this, then she SO HAD IT. lol. I miss that ex maid a.k.a opponent Nirmala sometimes. Even though she was the biggest shammer & had a temper problem, but still she was kinda ok. Yesterday I washed all the vessels while my folks were out, and I finally realised how tough it is, to wash vessels. So I made some new rules, like how everyone has to was their own dishes, and stuff like that.
This morning my father screamed my name so loud while I was asleep, that I almost had a paralytic stroke. No jokes. So I reprimanded him. Sometimes I feel that my mom nags me a bit too much, but then now I'm used to it. This new colony is a bloody bore. But thank god for the peace that accompanies it.
Ok, mom's calling me, I better scoot now and eat lunch. I'll come back and create a new module for my wishlist and put it up. Yippee Yippee Joy Joy!
Prayag. 11月12日 Despair, *Ugh*.Things are going fine. Nothing has gone against me. And still since today morning I feel this unexplainable despair within. Its a feeling so deep that I dont know where it starts and where it ends. Ugh. I'm bugged. After my class 1 medicals, I went and saw Bourne Ultimatum with pinka and her sister the following morning. We went and saw 2 friends of ours and posed. We also acted like complete rockstars and displayed our flamboyance. The next night I went with pinka and her sister for pizza. Thats it. I've been fine since thursday evening basically. But still, since today morning, i'm feeling frustrated and upset. These mood swings are the shit. I wanna honestly honestly take a holiday. I want to go away somewhere ALONE. And i wanna switch off my cell fone and stay away from internet. Suddenly I feel like detoxifying from mankind. I want everything to change. There are certain people who irritate me even though they haven done anything. Thinking about certain things bug me. I dont know, everything and everyone seem so annoying suddenly. I seek divine intervention. I duno whats wrong with me really my moods are so unpredictable and scary. Right now I feel like sneaking out of my house in the dead of the night, with my passport, reach the airport and flying away to some unknown place with some strangers. Suddenly life seems to be wanting me to take drastic measures. I'm confused. This endless cerebral melodrama never seems to end. Someone help. This is getting DIFFICULT.
Prayag. 11月9日 Medicals Cleared..!Finally, my medicals are done with and i cleared them. I'm super happy today. I cant express how much. Even though there was a little shock yesterday due to some silly EEG report but then at the end everythin worked out fine and I cleared the medicals. Phew!! This calls for a few dedications:
Thankyou God, for sailing me through the medicals and looking out for me always.
Thankyou Dad, for running around non-stop since yesterday with my reports and getting them organised for me, and making sure I slept well & reached on time.
Thankyou Mom, for making sure my morning tea, breakfast, dinner is kept ready, for keeping the geyser on, so that I could get ready and reach on time.
Thankyou Czar, for comforting me last night when I was upset about my report.
Thankyou Priyanka, for the continuous moral, spiritual support & for helping me stay practical and rational at the same time. Without you maybe I dont know what I would do.
Thankyou Porus, for calling me without fail from America everyday and consoling/comforting me that everything will be fine. You're indispensible.
Thankyou, to everyone of you, who prayed for me.
I'm eternally grateful.
Tonight I shall enjoy blissful sleep, something which I have been deprived of since a long time.
I also pray for my friend, whom I dont wish to name, since his medical report has a little problem, I hope he is looked out for as well.
I shall update tomorrow night. Thats all I had to say for now. I wish to go and let myself wander in this peace and happiness.
Prayag.
11月6日 The Fight, Medicals Tomorrow & Some More Ramble.Today happened to be quite a SHYT day. Like really, the highlight being the fight that mom started over Czar (My 3 yr old awesome fantabulous Golden Retriever- pedigreed btw). The day commenced at 11 am, I cleaned up the house a little here and there, ate lunch, washed the dishes, went for my bath, and finally I was all set and done by 4.45pm. Ate some nice bakery thing from Thom's Bakery, umm, sat online for a wee bit, and then at about 6pm, I heard loud unpleasant noises in the living room. And there was my mother superior, fighting about how she wanted my dad to give Czar away cuz reportedly she cant be taking care of him as he has 10 years of life left. I was shocked, can you imagine!? So yes, I threw myself into the fight and BANG BANG BOOM BOOM!!! Conclusion: My dog means the world to me and I love him to bits. There aint no way I'm giving him away. So I finally told my dad to take him to Assam with him, so that everyone can be at peace and my mother can keep her mouth shut. Family Melodramas are always so taxing and full of rubbish.
My medicals are scheduled for tomorrow, *gasps non stop*. I'm nervous, yes, but I'm positive that everything shall be fine. This medical is really really important. But then, all's well that ends well. So yup!
In other news, there isnt anything significant worth mentioning. Apart from maybe how I concluded today that dish-washing makes my lower back pain like crazy. And also maybe how I may have slight OCD: Obsessive Compulsive Disorder incase any of you ignorant ones didnt know. Also, I like the new colony, its so peaceful. And all the inhabitants seem to mind their own businesss which is super. Unlike the first colony Manekshaw Enclave where I lived, where all everyone did was to play colony politics and poke their ugly noses into one another's shyt. Whatever though, atleast that horrendous phase is gone.
I just hope I get done with the meds super quick. We still have not got a full-time maid. I'm not surprised, its just been 6 days since we shifted. you know I was thinking of approaching these TV channels with an offer to produce a reality show based on me interviewing maidservants and taking their auditions. And then the winner gets to work at my place while I enjoy the glam and glory of stardom and fame. LOL. Okay too much I know, but sounds cool, I think.
My comp is behaving so awesomely since I reformatted it. I just need to figure out how to install the driver for the webcam via internet.
Oh and one bout of realisation I had today: I think I've started hating orkut, its just so blah. I prefer facebook now. haha, but then there shall soon be a time when something newer will take dominance and I'll despise facebook as well. Who knows, the madness of social networking sites just doesnt seem to end!!! A few minutes back, this acquaintance whom I have the utter misfortune of knowing, sends me a "message" on facebook asking me why I sent someone an invite when I dont really approve of that person. Now this particular person who sent me that message happens to be a highly nosy/curious/lifeless/assholic rhino. Oh wait, she's super ugly as well. LOL. Anyway I replied, telling her how I dont understand why it concerns her, and some more dissing shtuff. I wasnt outrightly rude, but I made sure I didnt sound nice in the least. I despise her with a passion so intense that if I could convert it into poison she would die just thinking of it. Wow that was nice!
So thats it, for now, I gotta sleep early tonight, and wake up early tomorrow morning, get ready and leave. My hypochondriac alter personality is at work. I'm wondering if I ought to have a bath tomorrow or should i just wash and leave? Considering it will be early morning I dont wanna catch a cold and then get my happiness ruined by the docs. Or whether I should lower the car's windows or not? And whether if I ought to have a double dosage of medicine tonight? Shyt Shyt. So much tension. not cool. I shall update tomorrow fo sho. Pray for me and wish me luck. Thanks.
Prayag. Delirium & A Lotta Hectic Shat-Shit Later.....So as I listen to "In My Arms" By Mylo, I start typing out this post in full power. The past few days have been fucking MAD. We shifted house, the new colony is alright. The maid fucking ditched us and went. Maybe thats cuz she couldnt stand losing to me after the final showdown - long story. So yeah, there have been a lot of earth-shattering changes since we shifted here: I've become a super cleanliness freak. I do washing/cleaning/swabbing etc. Phew! No that does not mean I'll be your domestic help I'll hack your fucking brains out. Umm, so then I set up the entire house, cleaned it, blah blah, *bows*. Though there's a new part-time maid who comes but she's an old prawn cant do shit straight so I'm slightly dissapointed. blah. I got fuckin broadband internet again woohoo weehoo!!!!!!!! & the comp's in my room. *peace*. I got my class 1 medical on the 7th of nov. I'm hella scared. I got my EEG test done today, I was anticipating the machine to blow up etc etc but nothing happened and they said my brain is fine. They also did an ultrasound of my abdomen and I somehow suppressed my laughter cuz the technician was rubbing the instrument like a maniac on me.
So today ended quite well. I finally got rid of the computer's virus. Reformatted it. phew. I'm tired. I wanna sleep and eat a big fat chicken burger overloaded with mayo. The onlyproblem I realised in this new colony is that the street lights dont work at night. Bloody assholes.
In other news, I saw General Mushy has declared emergency in his so-called democratic country. tsk tsk tsk, very sad. I personally like Benazir Bhutto, she's so educated and classy. Unlike our desi Mayawatis and Rabri Babies. Nonsense. I hope Pakistan gets a life, the fundamentalist jihadis need to kill themselves if they want any good for their nation etc. Seriously. One person though who I wanna meet is american socialite Kim Kardashian, I wanna ask her what it feels like to be her a.k.a fake prissy pop tart.
Some minutes ago I felt rather blank, I wish to, once again, fantastize about fleeing the country, and landing up in some exotic locale, *Sigh*. I'mso bugged. I wanna have some fun. I wanna join Balaji Telefilms. I wanna act. Thats one of my latest secret ambitions-gone-public. I wanna act as a character with shades of strawberry grey. lol.
Thats it for now. I'm sleepy. I'll update tomo. *Air kiss true blue celeb style*
Prayag
10月25日 So What If Albus Dumbledore Is Gay?So I've been reading the newspapers of late and daily there's atleast one column devoted to the unnecessary "shock" and "devastation" about Albus Dumbledore, an important character in the Harry potter series, being GAY. I dont see what the fuss is all about. There are some ignorant "parents" who say that they would not let their wards read Harry Potter after J.K Rowling made this announcement about Dumbledore's sexuality. Are these people for REAL!?!? *bewildered*. I was reading The Bangalore Mirror a few minutes back, and some random guy writes about this issue, and oh his sense of humour so delightfully makes me want to throw up on his god-forsaken face. There are statements such as: "Harry was not at the receiving end of Dumbledore's "Elder Wand" while being locked away for hours in his office". And he expresses that since Dumbledore did not use terms such as "faaabulous" and did not wear a rainbow coloured robe, therefore he holds no grudges against him. Can you imagine the mentality that these so-called modernised neanderthals have? It shocks me really. I'm at a loss for words. I think before anyone else, its the fundamentalists and these orthodox medieval lesser beings who need the axe on their necks. Its tragic really. All I can do is to blog about it. Not like there is any other option anyway.
In other news, nothing too conspicuous happened. I got back to Bangalore on Monday evening. The flight was delayed, and i detested every minute of it. Right now my back hurts, since I've been exercising, or maybe I overdid it. We are gonna be shifting soon. And I dont have a very positive feeling about the new colony. This present house was so much better. The new colony has army school crowd thats full of scum and other unmentionable mean evil things. Since I've returned, I've noticed that Czar has mellowed down, which is a good thing, since I was losing my patience and tolerance with him due to his past rowdy behaviour. Such a shame on a sophisticated being like him. But now he's back to his normal gentledogly self so all's well.
There's not much more to mention, I got my medical coming up and then my visa interview. I shall abstain from mentioning my visa thingy henceforth since I dont wish to jinx it.
So this is it, I'm passing my time away, to get done with stuff, and start flying - SOON. I must leave now, since I have to shower. More soon.
Prayag. 10月22日 BOM-BLR Today..Finally, I'm returning today. I should be home by 6pm. I've had a nice time. No complaints. Went here & there, had a nice pleasant time. Didnt shop at all, everything I liked seemed to be out of stock. Devastation struck when I was unsuccesful in finding a suitable birthday present for Pinkalicious The Buxom One. Well I still have faith in Bangalore & its shops. So lets see. Since last night I've been feeling very anxious. No, its not because I'm leaving Bombay. Its just this weird sort of feeling, you know, I'm very worried about my math result, my upcoming medicals and also my visa interview. All said and done, I guess if things are meant to happen, then so they shall. Otherwise something better may materialise. I guess worrying and speculating really doesnt help. But still, its one thing to know of true rationality but its just something else to implement it. I'm confused. Its not really cool but still. I cant wait to speak with Priyanka. It feels like its been soooo long. And then we'll be shifting to our new residence so everyone's gonna be real busy. Although there is nothing very significant to mention, but still something doesnt feel very right. It must be a temporal phase. Doesnt matter. Things will be fine. I'll update soon, once I'm home, or somefink. Later.
Prayag. 10月17日 A Riveting Flight, Math Exam & The Ramble..So finally my math exam is over. AT LAST. *gasp*. I did well, I feel I will pass. Though let me not elaborate further because I'm feeling slightly superstitious that if I do elaborate then things may not work out in my favour. Okay, so finally, its over and done with. Now let me move on to other things and please your curious souls by divulging the juicy details of my misadventures.
1) The Flight From Bangalore-Bombay, 13th October, 2007:
The Indian Airlines Flight IC 108 was to depart at 20:00 hours from Bangalore Airport to arrive at 21:30 hours at Mumbai. Well, thats what it said on the e-ticket. Fucking rubbish. I left home at 18:00 hours, haggled with the blasted auto-driver to drive fast and not talk stupid by asking for more money. So I reached at 18:45 hours only to find out at the check-in that the flight was delayed by 30 minutes "sharp". Can you imagine? the bastard check-in guy is trying to make the delay a precision of sorts. Freak. So as I gave him an angry glare and stormed off towards the security check, with my nose high up in the air, arrogance flowing down head-to-toe..On my way I noticed this old lady, possibly in her 60's .. making a fuss at the check-in counter, she sounded like an angry hen that just had a feather plucked brutally from its backside. Anyway i chose to ignore her and walked away at top speed. Security check happened, the dumb cop asked me whats inside my lipbalm container. Like, Hello? What? I think the fat clown wanted a whiff of it. Psycho. So i opened it and almost stuck it into his ugly blackhead-ridden nose but at the last moment I decided against it, I dont want my Body Shop LipBalm to get ruined by some dirty fatty coppy. wow that rhymed! *claps*. After the clearance, etc etc, I just sat, and sat, and sat, in the departure lounge, waiting for the people to announce the boarding. I was busy people-observing, as usual, I saw quite a few amusing specimens, a lady who was, I think, a first time flier, cuz she seemed quite excited yet terrified with the noise and commotion of the people, the aircrafts & the announcements. Its like an Orgasm Of Fright. Both complement each other. Bloody rubbish. Then there were some fucking irritating assholic teenagers who were just tryina be all chiller killer thriller but failed miserably. Someone please tell them to get a life - FAST.
As time ticked by, Jessica called up. I spoke to her, gasped and gossipped about bollywood gossip, gave my opinion on various TV shows, yakked , yakked and yakked. Until she had to hang up to go eat dinner and I was again left alone, amongst the masses, at the aiport. And then all of a sudden, as I was looking down and admiring my watch, I heard someone drop a heavy bag on the seat next to me. Startled, with my heart racing, I looked up, only to find, that old lady, *drat* sitting next to me with the most dazzling display of arrogance and superiority. Omg I loved her!!!! ,,, There she was, the fair, the flawless (though wrinkled ever so slightly), the charming, the suave, superbly dressed, the diamond brooch, *gasp gasp*.. ladies and mental-men, allow me, to present to you, The Weird Old Lady. sigh.
She sat down with a cute huff and looked around, visually admonishing anything that even MOVED. I was so awe-struck. I want to be like her! wow!! Talk about having a role model. I continued looking at her, & then FINALLY she cast her gaze upon me. Oh dear Lord, I was really terrified, what will this entity think of me? Oh shit, damn, blah blah. And she decided to speak to me.
Weird Old Lady: "This airline is so inefficient I hate this noise and chaos".
Prayag: "Yes I know I quite dislike it myself. Unorganised would be an understatement for them".
W.O.L.: "I have never travelled by Indian Airlines & I certainly dont intend to ever again, Uff, Khodai Ji, I cant tolerate this noise and all these irritating people around".
Prayag: *The second she uttered "khodai ji", the Parsi Sensor in my brain screamed like a banshee on menopause and suddenly the W.O.L in a whole new light. I looked at her with a gleam in my divine eyes, and said " I completely agree with you its so highly disgusting. You must be in so much discomfort. May I please get you something, like water? Incase you're stressed?"
W.O.L: "Oh how sweet of you! No I'm fine thanks. Atleast someone is civil here! Are you flying to Bombay as well?"
Prayag: "Yes I am. I'm going there for an exam."
W.O.L: "Alright thats good. I hope you do well. And I also hope you're my co-passenger. Or I will be very upset all over again".
I was so happy and my ego just shot up like an instant skyscraper at her talk. I flashed a dazzling smile at her and next thing I know we were approached for boarding, as W.O.L went about ordering the staff and creating a scene of sorts, I grinned and walked off towards the aircraft.
The stewardesses were fucking ugly and stupid. Except one, who was in her forties but was very motherly. I like women who are motherly. How special they make me feel. *sigh*. So anyway, I settled down, something inside me wanted W.O.L to come sit next to me, I've hardly found entertaining company on flights. Just as I wished, W.O.L came, huffing and puffing, like a shiny steam engine, towards my seat, asking the stewardess if it would be a problem if she sat next to me. My O My, was I flattered. She settled down, we fastened our seat belts, and in 5 minutes, we were taking off. Oh, the feeling of the engines throbbing, the power, the feeling of flying away from the ground, GOD I SO WANNA BE A PILOT!!!!! .
Once we commenced cruising, the atmosphere inside the aircraft calmed down a little. We were offered water etc, and dinner was to be served shortly. And thats when W.O.L & I resumed talking -
W.O.L: "So where do you stay in Bangalore?"
Prayag: "Oh quite close to airport road".
W.O.L: "Okay and where will you be staying in Bombay?"
Prayag: "At Santacruz, where do you stay?"
W.O.L: "I live at Malabar Hill, are you familar with Bombay"?
Prayag: "Indeed I am, I've been there a few times and lived there for a few months as well. "
W.O.L: " Oh I'm so sorry I didnt ask you your name.. "
Prayag: "I'm Prayag." *and I smiled*.
W.O.L: "Prayag, thats not a very common name. And Menon? Are you a Keralite? And my name is Simone Wadia".
My god, her name is so HOT. Simone. ok back to the convo..
Prayag: "Yes its not. haha. Okay dinner is here. Lets eat."
We ate silently, except during brief intervals when ranted about how awful the food tasted and how the chicken was not tender enough and how the ras malai was to dry etc etc etc.
After dinner I excused myself to the washroom, and then returned, I bent down near my seat to pick up the newspaper and the silver chain around my neck with the locket of The Zoroastrian Guardian Angel, The Asho Farohar, hung out of my tshirt.
Simone: " Arrey tamey parsi cheu ke????? " *Arrey are you parsi??????"
Prayag: "No No hahaha I'm not!"
Simone: "Oh, you're wearing an asho farohar thats why I asked, and you understand gujarati is it? "
Prayag: "Yes its given to me by my family friend. She treats me like her own family member so it was a present from her. They're Parsi as well. And yes i can manage gujarati, I'm not that good at it". *I was being modest but what the hell".
Simone: "Acha em che. Majenu. *smile*. (Oh like that)
We went on cackling after that. I managed in broken guj with her. She seemed quite pleased with me. haha.. She told me about her family etc and how she's planning a holiday to Egypt later this year, amongst other very riveting and hilarious things.
The flight landed, oh what fun it was!!!!! I bid adieu to Simone, and wished her good health and happiness, and she the same. I would not forget her so fast. How interesting a sexagenarian turned out to be! I'm so impressed with her. A perfect blend of awesomeness, arrogance and fun.
I reached home, by 11.30pm. My madness with Monaz started. lol. She's Porus's sister. And we're tight friends as well. Queen Ferzu, Porus's mom, exclaimed when she saw me, " Prayag you look like a hippie!!!! Cut your hair quick!!!"
After a bout of laughter etc etc, I changed, ate, and studied a little. Then we decided to call it a day and sleep.
14th October & 15th October:
I studied, and studied, and just studied. Did the random fooling around with Monaz. The only funny comment came from Porus's neighour, a mangalorean lady, who said " Prayag gora ho gaya hai" when she saw me. Oh god, a flutter of embarrassment and pride ripped through me. Finally someone in Bombay noticed that my skin had actually cleared up to reveal my real handsome dashing face. All said and done, studies continued.
16th October: Math Paper 1, panic attacks, fervent praying, the paper went well. I was satisfied. Monaz left for delhi in the evening.
Suddenly I felt alone and bored. I continued studying for Math Paper 2.
17th October: Math Paper 2, fear, terror, sleeplessness, a lot of praying, the paper was average. I should be passing this time. I'm certain. I've worked hard and prayed with all my heart and soul with no malice whatsoever. So lets drop the exam topic, now that its over and done with. Some weird guy tried hitting on me while I was enroute to the exam in the local train. I was too shocked to react, however, the inner bitch took precedence and I shot him evil glares. He backed off. Last thing I need before writing an exam is a sexual advance from a repulsive mortal. YUCK. Like my friend Gina says: "These local train perverts need a local train up their lousy asses" hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaahahaha Gina's so funny I like that.
I'm free now, bored, with nothing to do. Feels awful. Tomorrow Queen Ferzu and I are going out for a movie and dinner later on. I duno when Monaz wil be back. I called some common friends and I think I would be meeting them on friday night for dinner maybe. Meanwhile the haircut has to be taken care of. I also want to go clubbing and get drunk. Just to let loose. Right now, things feel ok, I'm satisfied, or am I?
I feel like I'm missing something and yet I dont know what it possibly could be. I feel, after a long time, purely blank.
I think I'll go yakk on the phone now to retain my sanity. I'm high on boredom. I'll update soon. And my wishlist is yet to be put up. Watch out for me all you mortals. Take care and mention me in your prayers. I need them.
Prayag.
10月9日 The Maths Exam, Weight-Loss & The Flood Of Events.Ok, so its been 1.5 months. I've been fine, thanks. To begin with, my math exam is scheduled to happen exactly one week from today. As I listen to "Martin Solveig- Madan" and my insides start acrobatting towards oblivion, I cant help but gasp and smile at how fast time has flown. Amazing really. Ok ok, so update time:
Go have your bath. Switch off the computer. Mothers, I tell you. So amazing yet so difficult. To be very honest, I think, my mother has committed a grave sin by spoiling me as far as food is concerned. She cooks so amazingly and brilliantly, and she lets me fuss and throw tantrums at the table. I'm so used to it now that I dont think anyone else can culinarily ever please nor satiate me. I also want to be thrown a surprise birthday party. I turn 20 on the 24th of jan 2007. Even though I'm struck by grief because I dont wish to leave 19, and grow OLDER by a year, but still, maybe I can be kept happy with some nice presents and a surprise party with super food and the most gorgeous cake. Priyanka the buxom beauty simply chooses to laugh when I mention the idea to her. Sigh. Ummm...I'm yet to start working on my 20th birthday wishlist. The only hitch is, I need the entire wishlist to come true. lol . I want to approach The Make A Wish Foundation...would they help though? I cant fake being terminally ill as I am a hypochondriac. Priyanka, Porus and everyone else who likes me, are you all reading this? God, people are SO thick that I have to make things extremely obvious to them. Anyway I shall put up my "20th birthday wishlist" soon over here. So interested parties watch this space. What else..mmmm..let me see...yes my dad has been posted out of Bangalore. To assam. I cant disclose the location on the internet because I'm scared the blasted naxalites wil use the information to their advantage. Czar (my golden retriever) snarled at me a few days ago. So i pretended he didnt exist for a week. We're cool now. My ex nemesis-but soon to return as present nemesis- THE MAID, is planning to leave, I think. Since we wil have to shift out of our present accomodation into another army colony( hopefully not the old one where I used to live because its infested with vermin and scum, I'm trashing the inhabitants here), I think the bitch wants to desert us and fuck off to greener pastures. Her fuck-up is that she wants a private bathroom in her servant quarter. Just imagine, thats why I always tell my poor innocent mother not to make these maids sit on the head. Mom needs to learn from me, on how to be a hard as nails taskmaster. But alas!!!!!!! I think I ought to stop here. I'll update soon. I promise. No more procrastination. And moreover, the wishlist has to be put up, so thats all the initiative I need! Take care everyone, and pray I do well in math. And, that i stay amazing and fabulous and funny and talented and intelligent etc forevermore. Prayag. p.s: My current craze is Human Physiology. I love learning about how the body works and the medical jargons are so cool!!! |
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